# Eating disorders
What Bulimia Does To Your Teeth
I went to a new dentist the other day. I hate going to the dentist, but I especially hate new ones. I hate the smell of the dental office, I hate the routine of taking images of my teeth, and I hate that a new dentist will explore my mouth for the first time, looking for any flaws they may be able to cash in on. What I hate more than almost anything though, is when the new dentist, with hands in my mouth, exclaims, “your teeth are very worn for someone your age.”
My Doctor Told Me I'm Overweight
My annual physical is normally short and to the point. Height, weight, blood pressure, throat check, a small conversation about safe sex, double checking that my pap smear is scheduled, double checking that my therapy is going well, and my doctor peels off her white gloves that she didn't even use. I'm normally in and out of the doctor's office in under 30 minutes. But this year, my doctor furrowed her brow and said, "It looks like you're overweight." I haven't gained weight in at least 5 years, so I laughed and kicked my shoes like a small child on a park bench watching a balloon artist. Normally, my chart would show that I have a history of an eating disorder, along with the treatment my hospital provided. Because I stopped seeking treatment awhile ago, I figured that bit of pertinent information had disappeared from my chart. I also figured that it doesn't really matter. At some point, that piece of information should disappear from my health chart if I've successfully moved past it.
My Eating Disorder & The Internet
I was a Freshman in high school when my parents first gave me cell phone, a small silver pay-by-the-minute flip phone that I was to use to call them after basketball practice, or in case of emergency.
Carrots: My Anorexic Obsession
Carrots are an American produce staple. We dip them in ranch. We pair them with celery and hummus. We add them to soups and curl them all fancy like on top of salads. We feed our elderly mushy steamed carrots to compensate for their lack of teeth.
How I Got My Period Back
I recently wrote about how I lost my period for years, and how my eating disorder and competitive running contributed to it. I never thought much about losing my period because dozens of people—doctors, coaches, friends—normalized the loss of menstruation for someone so physically active. I thought it was convenient, and largely ignored the handful of people who did express concern. But my period was never regular, and at 24, I could count the number of periods I'd had in my lifetime on two hands.
Eating Disorders, Running, & Period Loss
When I was in high school, I was recruited by dozens of college cross county and track programs. This was a strange experience, and sort of an ego-boost. Because of my burgeoning eating disorder, I often isolated myself in the name of "being best." I thought that if I trained hard enough, or dieted enough, I would be fast enough to earn a scholarship. Attention from so many schools validated that belief in an extremely tangible manner, and has shed light on the dark underbelly of this disordered pattern of thinking.
A Timeline of My Eating Disorder
I am 9 years old, sitting in my fourth-grade spelling class. Despite my advanced reading ability, I am a sub-par speller, and studying at a third-grade level. In preparation for an upcoming test, the teacher has positioned the students in a circle, and we’re going around the room spelling words she assigns us out loud. When my turn comes, the teacher says, “chubby.” “Chubby” I say, “c-h-u-b-b-y.” As soon as I finish spelling the word, a boy next to me whispers audibly, “Yeah you are!” My heart feels too big, my face too hot. No one has every bullied me before. The same boy taunts me for the rest of the school year, and for the first time, I wonder what it means to be fat.
Chewing and Spitting
There were the "bad" foods that I considered "off-limits." Candies, cakes, donuts, cookies, ice cream, white bread, sugared cereals, crackers, juice, soda, smoothies, granola bars, pretzels, brownies, waffles, pancakes, anything rich or carby or satiating. Denying myself these foods was easy for a while; dieting provided intense feelings of power and elation. But I'm going to beat the proverbial dead horse and reiterate what so many of us have already heard: diets don't work.
Eating Disorder Treatment: What to Expect
A lot of people read my blog and send me questions about eating disorders: how can someone tell if their child has one? What are the signs? Is it a genetic issue or caused by environmental pressures? What does social media have to do with everything? Can eating disorders be resolved on their own or do they require specific treatment? This last question gets me. It could be possible to recover without help, but I've never heard of it, and I certainly didn't experience it. I had the support of an outpatient program as well as years of therapy and intimate work with a dietitian. Today, I'm going to do my best to disseminate the different types of treatments and help you understand what to expect.
Working Out While Recovering From Anorexia
Is it possible? Yes. Is it helpful? Not always. After being diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa, I was told to stop exercising. I wasn't happy about that, because I was addicted to exercise. Being a Division 1 athlete was serious business, and for five years straight, I worked out like it was my job because it sort of was. I'd been running a lot and slowly starving myself for years prior to my diagnosis. I pushed myself through workouts only to go home and sleep for hours. I bonked countless times in the middle of runs. My gastrointestinal system was so messed up that at one point, I couldn't run more than a couple miles without having to stop to use the bathroom. My athletic performance wasn't anywhere near good, but I was so indoctrinated into my eating disorder that losing weight mattered more to me than running fast. I needed to keep moving so I could avoid any unwanted weight, or so I thought.
Opinion: Eating Disorders are Not Just for Girls
The following article contains opinions from the author who has been a counselor for 14 years and does not necessarily reflect the opinions of NewsBreak or Particle Media. For decades, parents and children have had to deal with body image issues, including anorexia and bulimia nervosa. While these issues typically arise in adolescence, adults can experience them after puberty, even having the first episode in their 30s or 40s.
What's eating you? Eating Disorders on the rise among baby boomers
Let's face it. Aging can be a challenge to body image. Although we may feel young and youthful inside, one trip to the mirror can wreck any youthful illusions we may have about aging gracefully without wrinkles and tummy fat. Still, in defiance of the obvious, a Pew Research Center survey confirms that most of us feel at least 10-20 years younger than we are. And a glance at the birthdate on the driver's license only confirms it. Have you recently applied online for any credit cards? Scrolling down through the years to find your birthdate can feel like hours.