I grew up in a larger body, and like many others, the world taught me to despise my size. I was continually shaming, judging, and blaming my body. It felt as though a dark cloud of despair constantly loomed over me. New year’s resolutions brought pressure, restrictions, and the determination to change and shrink my body.
When I was 19, I discovered astrology. I learned about the birth chart and what it meant. Essentially this tool is a map of where the planets were when an individual was born. Astrology gave me a different perspective of myself. This new view was more profound than my body’s size and conveyed my unique talents and skills.
This practice quickly became a means of self-acceptance. Here I am 10 years later and in love with myself. I think back to those years of self hatred and don’t know how I survived. For me, astrology was a game-changer, and it’s my joy to share this tool with others. Especially during a time of year that places pressure on us to perform and improve.
Let’s throw out the resolutions and choose to lean into accepting our authentic selves.
The Birth Chart
This is where it all began for me. It’s also known as the star chart and is a map of where the planets were when an individual was born. Many people know their sun signs, but the chart also shows our Moon signs, Venus signs, Mars signs, etc. Each planet conveys symbolism and influences the fabric of who we are.
The Sun Sign
Think of solar energy as the lens through which we perceive reality. This occurs collectively when the Sun transits a certain constellation, or individually connected our natal sun sign, throughout our entire lives. Think of the Sun’s energy as our conscious awareness; it includes what we observe, forms the path we most often travel and is the easiest for us to identify. -Analogies, Energies & Celestial Bodies
My sun sign is Capricorn; this energy loves to work hard, push itself, and improve. It’s often goal-driven and committed to accomplishment. Still, it can also be a harsh. It’s got high expectations for itself and others. Learning about being a Capricorn helped me to understand my patterns. At times I feel like I will never be good enough. I hit one goal and then put myself to reach ten others. To be honest, it’s exhausting. Now that I know it’s part of my cosmic makeup, I can appreciate the power it brings. I am a hard worker and can get a lot done, and for that, I am proud of myself. However, when I am pushing myself to burn out, I can notice the pattern and take a step back.
Ultimately it’s not that our Sun sign is good or bad, nor right or wrong. It’s simply a facet of who we are. When we become aware of what makes us tick, we can appreciate our intentions and efforts.
The Moon Sign
The thing with the Moon is that we cannot direct its extremes, but we can ride the waves and tides as they come and go. When it comes to the Moon, it’s all about energetic awareness, we cannot control her energies, but we can be aware of them. Lunar energy is often felt, not seen, but not seeing something does not make it any less powerful. Think of an undercurrent, for example. Looking across the water, we may think that it’s just a regular old surf break, when in fact, the riptide is roaring. --Analogies, Energies & Celestial Bodies
When we look at our moon signs, we get a better idea our undercurrents and where they are flowing. Understanding this energy is about accepting our emotions. Often we feel like emotions carry a weight that we want to shed. Still, through our moon sign, we can understand ourselves and hopefully come to a peace treaty with the mighty waters of feelings within us.
Here’s an example, my moon sign is Scorpio, and I’ve always had many feelings. I can’t tell you how many times someone told me not to take things personally and that I was too sensitive. Learning about my Scorpio Moon sign energy helped me to understand that I am highly intuitive. I pick up on things others don’t, and I feel what’s below the surface. This not only helped me understand myself, it took the negative connotations out of being sensitive. This discovery allowed me to appreciate the power I hold. Now I accept my inner intensity, rather than wishing it away and feeling victimized by it.
Astrology gave me a new mirror
As mentioned, I had a volatile relationship with my body while growing up. Mirrors were my worst nightmare, and I never wanted to look at myself. I didn’t liked the reflection that peered back at me, so I chose to avoid it. But this meant I didn’t see myself and instead looked to the outside world for validation. Without the foundation of self-acceptance, I was never good enough for others. This left me hurt, and the cycle of self-hatred perpetuated.
Astrology outlined my inner workings, which allowed me to shift from solely focusing on my physical appearance. The world had always taught me to focus on what the mirror was displaying back to me, but astrology allowed me to understand I’m more than just a reflection. The framework of astrological archetypes gave me the chance to know myself on a deeper level. From there, I was able to accept my the beauty beyond the surface.
We are each a tapestry
Looking at the back of a tapestry, we can only see the frayed strands and threads. It looks messy, confusing, and all over the place. Yet when we turn the tapestry around and look from the front, we see the image’s perfection. We understand that each thread serves a purpose and collaborates to make up the whole.
Astrology helped me to flip the tapestry. I went from seeing the chaotic threads of myself to appreciating how each part of me comes together; forming a masterpiece. There is so much to love about each of us, but self-love is easier said than done.
My journey began with self-acceptance. Astrology helped me to see how each thread makes up the fabric of who I am. It’s a framework which gave context to my struggles, my skills, and my challenges.
By understanding the bigger picture, I had space to work with the cards I had been dealt, rather than resenting myself, focusing on hatred and wishing to change things out of my control.
This new year, my wish for each person is self-acceptance. Or at least the willingness to begin to entertain the idea. Maybe we don’t need to resolve to change and force ourselves to improve. Astrology has been a game-changer for me, and I hope that you might learn from it too. Understanding our sun and moon signs are a great place to start. For those who want to dive deep, I highly recommend exploring the birth chart as a whole. There is so much information out there, and if you need a guide, I am here to help.