Lockdown, a worldwide pandemic, our freedom pretty much being held hostage have worsened our mental health.
I read posts every day about people fighting for their freedom, in a world that for obvious reasons has limited it.
At this point and time, our governments are unsure about the future of our nations, so rushed decisions and daily changes are the normality.
All of this unsureness has affected the way we make plans and live our lives. We’ve all had to make substantial changes and for many of us, this has contributed to rising anxiety panic attack, depression and other mental health issues.
Personally, although I do suffer from anxiety, I have managed to stay quite calm for most of this pandemic. I believe that peace of mind starts with letting go and trusting.
In my case, being very spiritual and trusting God with every aspect of my life, has helped me understanding that no matter what we try to do we will never be in control of our future, so the only thing we have left is to put our trust in Him.
Faith has helped me through it all this year, even in the most difficult situations.
Starting with my wedding being cancelled three times, you can only imagine what that did to my mind. I have been wanting to marry the love of my life for a year now, and I was stuck, I simply couldn’t do it.
Many people weren’t understanding why I would be so adamant to get married if anyways, my husband and I were already living together and had our lives sorted before we got married.
What majority of people failed to understand were our desires as new Christians.
It definitely wasn’t a problem to be unmarried and living together before we were born-again, but it started to be when our beliefs had changed.
Nobody was understanding our suffering and frustrations for our situation, but in that lonely time, I believe that God was always present to comfort us and reassure us. With His compassion and mercy, He knew exactly what my husband and I were going through and in the end, He gave us a completely different marriage from what we expected but nonetheless an amazing one.
It might sound unbelievable but I was having dreams and revelations about our wedding being cancelled and held in a completely different way, months before it had happened.
The unthinkable kindness of God was already preparing me and comforting me preceding this difficult time of my life.
I knew all along that whatever God had planned for us, it would have been fabulous, so at a certain point, I just had to let go and trust. As a Christian I learned that to trust in something, to believe and completely let go is to know that what you believe in has been heard and it is already been done.
One of my favourite scriptures from the Bible is in Matthew 6:25-30
“Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature? “So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?”
Every time I read this scripture I am reminded that I need to let go of my controlling nature, and just trust God.
Control has always been my problem, the cause of anxiety and panic attacks. How could it not be! Life is unpredictable and it is not in our own hands! We cannot control nor change our future, however, God can do everything and so we can take comfort in knowing that we can always go to Him for our requests.
Even during my Covid-19 experience, all I had left was Faith. I am sure I am not the only one to have gone through it, but I will tell you that mentally being pregnant and contracting Covid-19 is definitely not a joke. The level of stress is intense. Other than how the illness has affected my body, I have to say that it has quite affected my mental health. During that time, also my 69-year-old father and my mother had contracted the virus, but all I did was continue to pray and never doubt that as He had been rescuing me before He will also do the same now.
And so it was. I would lie to you if I told you that there were times where I was unsure and doubtful because I am still a human being, but all I had to do was being reminded of all the times when my prayers were answered.
Fear can play awful tricks to our minds since my pregnancy, I feel faint every time I talk about certain subjects like things that could affect my pregnancy or medical things in general. It has happened a few times. Simply fear. Fear is the cause of all our suffering and anxieties but it's purely a mental thing.
Fear comes from a place of uncertainty. Once you become certain of who you are, there is no fear that can overcome you. I have personally discovered who I am in Christ and this has helped me overcome all of my worse fears!
I have suffered from anxiety and depression my whole life but it ceased when I let go of my fears and started trusting God and His plan for my life.
Now I am sure He’s got me, no matter what happens in my life. Surely bad things happen to everyone, believers and non-believers, but in my opinion, it’s definitely better to go through something with God than without.
I cried to God, fearing about many things this year and He's heard about them all, this is why I wanted to let you know that no matter how difficult things may be or have been for you, you are never alone and there is always somebody out there that will listen to you at all times.