Do you see yourself changed to a whole new person ever since becoming a mom? Wiser, more fierce, happier, stronger than ever with a new perspective to life, a new purpose and a meaningful relationship like none other. But I also feel weighed down into responsibilities of tiny humans that encompass my life, so much unlike my older self.
If I was to tell my younger, pre- motherhood- self, if I was to write a letter to the young lady that I was before motherhood, I would ask her to be a lot easier on herself.
If I was to tell this lady in me before having a baby, I would tell her how strong and determined she will turn out to be. I would tell her that she is born to be a mom, to love endlessly and to give what she doesn’t even know she has!
And the dear old me, if you gazed at the stars for hours, imagining the beautiful life you will weave in your future, please know, that you are living in it now. Also know, that life gets busier and amidst all this hustle are the sweetest kisses, cutest smiles, innocent love and warmest hugs that will shape your new identity as a Mom.
I would tell her that even though she has found true love in her life, there is more to come in the purest form there is. The one whose eyes would twinkle when he sees her and his heart would bloom with her love.
I would tell her that every moment she felt like she was any less- worthy, she was wrong and that every cell in her body is made out of gold. I would tell her to live through every hurdle in the way because she is solid as a rock.
I would tell her that she would marry the right person who will turn out to be just the perfect father to her kids. I would ask her to not wallow in despair for heartbreaks and failures because she is yet to unfold the magical times of her life.
I would tell her to wear every pair of high heeled stilettos. I would tell her to let her hair loose and let the wind blow through them because one day a messy bun will be her only style. I would tell her to oversleep without feeling guilty because one day sleep will be a luxury. And I would ask her to keep herself away from any guilt, because one day she will be so full of it.
I would tell her to enjoy an extra cup of coffee and sip it for as long as she wants, sitting all alone on the porch covered with fall leaves and autumn breeze.
I would tell her to listen to her new mommy friends, help them more, smile to a stranger mom, and be kind, very very kind to a mom, including her own, because she doesn’t know what it takes.
I would ask her to love herself more, to stop and breathe, to live her freedom.
I would tell her that life will be full of hardships but there is a little bundle of joy waiting for her to embrace those arms and to hold her finger as she navigates through life.
And the dear old self, you are more worthy than you realize! You are still your older self with tiger stripes. You are brave. You are loved. You are the best mom to your kids.
Yes, you are a lot different now, but so much better and so content.
What would you write in a letter to your old self?