Looking Within: Spiritual Fortitude

Kendra Hall


There is a great release that manifests as bad habits, commonly called “vices.” With no spiritual fortitude, you become increasingly needy for the things that will rob you of your greatness. You do not understand why you have picked up these bad habits and why sin is now running rampant in your life. You try to hide your sin behind your progress, but all that happens in the dark will slowly be uncovered. Sin causes confusion in every aspect of your life. By holding fast to sin, you will lose the very control you seek.

Victor’s Confession: Feeling like he is enough with each stroke, each breath, glance, note, word, vibe...the wanted, the pure, the seen. Having her do what others could not. Having her see what others ignored, is its own high of sorts. It is redeeming to his body and temporarily soothes his mind. It makes him forget the pain in his heart. Slowly he unclenches his teeth into a smile. This feeling makes him feel like he is soaring on cloud nine for a while, just a little while longer. Then he remembered how she broke his heart, and the dance begins again, this time maybe with a new “friend”. Mr. Charismatic, who wants hearts collected to hold at his disposal. Tired of his heart being held hostage my ones who tossed it away when he is told he is no longer a prisoner. He has decided henceforth to deny trust to all! No deserving hearts in sight he told himself, and he cannot say there will ever be one. His heart is calcified with tears and stained with the guilt of not being able to tune into the intuition that should have protected him from the pain of giving his heart away to the unworthy and undecided. Hating and loathing the pain; yet being oddly familiar with what it brings, more passion and more pain. He has resigned that sex, love and pain always go hand in hand, like the ocean to the sea. Moans of passion echo against his mind, temporarily masking the pain inside. For a moment. That is how long it captures his attention before wavering to the next ripple, and the next. Never settling on a wave again, as it may float him out to sea again. Over feeling, over sensitive is what they say. He has told himself he cannot lose control of his emotions. He is too fearful of being too much of this, or never enough of that.

We learned from Victor’s confession, not to use people as distractions. He has allowed his vice to make him feel no one soul is ever enough, not even his own. It is downward spiral direclty into the pit of despair. We must rid ourselves of the things that distract us from God’s presence. The desires of our heart must change. James 1:21 says, “So get rid of all uncleanliness and the rampant outgrowth of wickedness, and in a humble spirit receive and welcome the word which is implanted and rooted (in your hearts) contains the power to save your souls.” We are further instructed in James 1:22., “Be doers of the Word (obey the message), and not merely listeners to it, betraying yourselves (unto deception by reasoning contrary to the truth).” Allow this word to have a resting place in your heart. Do not be so filled up with the world and the things of it, that you lie to yourself thinking worldly pleasures are all you need.

James 1:23-24, “For if anyone only listens to the word without obeying it and being a doer of it, he is like a man who looks carefully at his (own) natural face in the mirror; for he thoughtfully observes himself, and then goes off and promptly forgets what he looks like.” Look at yourself and analyze your daily decisions. Are you struggling with vices? If you are it is time to re-focus your attention to the penetrating word of God. If you want to be freed from the bondage of what you feel is holding you, try a new thing. God’s words can never be stagnated as it energizes our spirit, heart, and soul. We must fill our empty spaces with the Lord and not vices that will separate us from the divine nature of God.

Ephesians 4:19 states, “In their spiritual apathy they have become callous and past feeling and reckless and have abandoned themselves (a prey) to unbridled sensuality.” In this verse the people had fallen prey to all types of strange acts that society permitted. They have become spiritually lazy and become attuned to living a reckless existence. These individuals were eager to indulge their desires in forms of impurity. With no spiritual defense in place, they have allowed vices to rule their world. We can no longer eat of the crumbs and lap the slop of sin. It is time to level up. If you know better, do better. Our hearts race to impurity because that is its nature. It is time to put on the full armor of the Lord. We want to believe we are delivered, but tests come to prove who and where we are in the Lord. Ask yourself if you are passing life’s tests.

Ezekiel 11:14-21, “The word of the Lord came to me: “Son of man, the people of Jerusalem have said of your fellow exiles and all the other Israelites, ‘They are far away from the Lord; this land was given to us as our possession.’

“Therefore say: ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: Although I sent them far away among the nations and scattered them among the countries, yet for a little while I have been a sanctuary for them in the countries where they have gone.’

“Therefore say: ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says: I will gather you from the nations and bring you back from the countries where you have been scattered, and I will give you back the land of Israel again.’ “They will return to it and remove all its vile images and detestable idols…”

No more hanging onto foolishness. Admit, submit, commit and transmute. Get your spirit in order. State clearly that you will not allow any distractions to move you away from God.

“…I will give them an undivided heart and put a new spirit in them; I will remove from them their heart of stone and give them a heart of flesh. Then they will follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws. They will be my people, and I will be their God. But as for those whose hearts are devoted to their vile images and detestable idols, I will bring down on their own heads what they have done, declares the Sovereign Lord.”

There are some lessons you must learn, so learn the lesson. God will always find a way to deal with your heart. It is your time to release the strongholds over your life. God loved us before we knew it was love. Trust Him and stay focused on His word. Jeremiah 33:3. “Call on me and I will answer you and show you great and mighty things.” Pray for spiritual understanding. When all is noisy around you, allow God to be your calm. You need only Him to thrive. God bless you.

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