I walked across a memory

Euri Giles | Clareifi

Even in the mid to late stages of #alzheimers my dad still carries around books 📚 magazines, or articles he wrote.

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He was always studying, always working, reading, #writing

More than 40 years before he would be diagnosed with #alzheimersdisease in 1970 he wrote:

“AI

Transition:

I walked across a memory, and fell into a forgotten place; it was a lapse in memory. I’ve hurt myself. As I climb to the edge of the cranial recall. 1

C.R.G.

I’ve fallen into a memory lapse and I’ve forgotten how to get out. ↩︎”

memories #endalzheimers #endalz💜 #writer #writing #writingcommunity #clareifi #dad #dadstuff

Why Can't He Remember?

His words, a catalyst of creativity.

Why can’t he remember?

Once obsessed with mortality, fear of and then acceptance of death.

A combination of science and prose, a carefully crafted story emerges.

Always the protagonist, his characters enjoy life more than him now. They have the chance to grow, to be free, to live forever — like he wanted to.

Curiosity.

Random thoughts.

Suicidal thoughts.

The words stay the same, it’s the story that keeps changing.

His story will not be forgotten.

  • E.G.

I miss you dad.

Perspectives of Anxiety

I can’t feel it

It’s gone

Where there was once hope

Only darkness

While there are moments of joy

Mostly sadness

Perspective is relative

Self awareness brings clarity

Live up to your responsibility

What example will you set?

While you sulk and cry and fret

If not for yourself

Live for those who love you

Anxiety runs high

They don’t need to see

It’s written on your face

You thought that you could hide

I can feel it

It’s back

Where there was once darkness

Only hope

While there are moments of sadness

Mostly joy

Relatives are not perspective

Clarity Breeds self awareness

Responsibility is your life

Set the right example

Don’t sulk and cry or fret

It’s not about you

Love those who share your life

Calm your anxiety

Let them all see

The smile on your face

You wouldn’t dare to hide

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